I have fallen madly, deeply, completely in love…again.
Becoming pregnant renewed the magic in my marriage. I feel like a kid again. I hear my husband’s voice and I get butterflies, I feel his touch and my body heat rises, he sneaks me a smile and I let out a little giggle. I can’t get enough of him. And I love it.
I have no idea if this is common amongst all pregnant couples. Perhaps it is. I know that pregnancy is a special time for fertile couples as well. But, I can’t help but feel like it’s stronger and more powerful for us. We’ve been through so much together throughout our IF journey. There were times when the stress and disappointment associated with infertility got in the way of our relationship. I allowed the pain that I was feeling to seep in to our marriage. I let my attention turn away from ‘us’ and focus only on the process and goal of IVF.
I didn’t realize just how much I missed my husband until now. I was unaware that things were off, because I was all consumed with our infertility.
No matter what happens with this pregnancy, I am grateful that it has brought me back to life. It has brought me back to him. I will never again let the pains of life overshadow the incredible love I have for the most wonderful
man person in the world.
To those of you in the midst of your IF journey, be sure to remain focused on your marriage. Remind yourself of the single most important reason you’re putting yourself through this hell – FOR LOVE.