Well, I’m on bedrest again.
I started bleeding again Wednesday night. Just a bit of spotting, but it was bright red. It scared the crap outta me. I’m still scared. Thursday I made it through most of the day, but then the spotting returned in the afternoon and carried on for a couple hours. It wasn’t a lot, but it was RED. Ugh, Im freaked.
So, I called my clinic. And what happened, you ask? They refused to let me come in for an u/s. Since I technically graduated from them (u/s wise), even though I will continue to see them for medications and blood draws for another couple weeks, they said I needed to call my OB. They cast me aside. CAST. ME. ASIDE.
I have given that clinic over $25,000 in the last 6 months. Yet, they refuse to let me come in for a simple 5-minute procedure that I am willing to pay for – just 3 days after my last u/s with them!? Really makes me angry. The nurse could tell how freaked out I was and yet, nothing.
I haven’t lived here long enough to have an OB. So, my first appointment (scheduled for next week) will be the first time I meet the nursing staff. Although they may have been able to get me in for an emergency appointment, I’ve been scared to go. I didn’t want to go in to a clinic I had never been to and to hear from a staff member I had never met, potentially terrible news. I just couldn’t stomach it, especially with my husband out of town for work.
So, my fertility clinic had the decency (read = sarcasm) to put me back on bedrest until I see my OB on Monday. So, yesterday and today…and for the next two days…I am sitting at home, anxiously checking my panty liner every 5 minutes, fearing the worst every time I go to the bathroom, waiting, worrying.
The spotting has been very minimal, which gives me hope, but of course I am still scared. My nurse called with my blood results today and my estrogen has increased by 1,000, which is also a good sign. On the other hand, my progesterone has not changed over the last week. I’m hoping for nothing but good news on Monday. Maybe my cervix has been irritated from the applicators for my suppositories. Maybe my subchorionic bleed has slightly opened again. Maybe it’s unexplained but nothing to worry about. Let’s hope so…