Am I supposed to be feeling anything? Because I don’t. It might sound crazy, but I wake up every morning hoping to feel a huge wave of nausea. That would reinforce for me that there really is a little human being growing inside of me. But, no, I feel pretty much nothing. I guess I have been feeling pretty tired by around 5pm a lot of days but I chaulk that up to the general anxiety I’ve been struggling with recently.
This 2.5ww really is a brutal one. I don’t remember it being this hard last time around. It feels like forever ago that we received our beta results and after the excitement and non-stop daydreaming about pregnancy for about a week, we’ve simply fallen back into a routine. I suppose a lot of it has to do with the fact that we have a little munchkin now who keeps our attention.
But our inattention to the pregnancy has, well, caught my attention. It scares me – I worry that if I don’t feel pregnant and our focus isn’t on the pregnancy then maybe I’m not actually pregnant. As much as I’m not focused on it, I’ll be devastated if we see no hartbeat next week. Absolutely devastated.
Can we all hope for severe nausea tomorrow?!?